Write: the shoe

I don't know why but I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. For him to say "Atikah, I think we shouldn't continue this." Probably because we are incompatible, or we are just not on the same page. Maybe he won't give a reason at all, just leaving me hanging. Like I am right now. I am hanging, waiting for the other shoe to drop. 

But then he says, "Atikah, you're so important to me" and I feel so happy. Happier than I've ever been this whole entire year put together. And I want it to stay this way. Please. I think I deserve that at least. And more. So much more.